Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

I just don't get it. It seems like forever since we last spoke, though it's only been two days. Why hasn't he contacted me?

I feel so stupid because things are running through my mind like: maybe he realized he doesn't love me and doesn't wanna hurt me by telling me that, or maybe he's in trouble, or hurt, or something terrible. He's probably just busy, but he worries me. I can hear some wise person saying "That's love, hunny," so I'll shut up now.

Enough of my annoying-ness. I leave for Virginia tomorrow. I feel sad to leave my home, but I'll be coming back soon, so I guess it's ok. My little sister came up for the weekend. She was staying with my mom in Virginia. She's such a little goofball. I love her. I don't know what a 16 hour car ride to Virginia is going to be like with her, though. Yes, I'm riding in an 18-wheeler. So much fun...not.

I guess I'll post a little later tonight. I'm feeling kinda down.
またね
美知子です

Wow...

So, I guess some of the things I said in my last post weren't true...
I thought he could never love me... but I guess he does...

I'm indescribably happy right now.

I hadn't really loved anyone before, so I never knew what it felt like to tell someone I love them. Now I do...and now I know what it's like for that person to say it back. It feels amazing...

The problem? I'm going to Virginia for a couple of weeks, and won't be able to see him until I get back. But it's ok. Last night left me with enough happiness to last a few weeks, and the memories will last for much longer than that....

I think I'm just going to delete my last post...I was really wrong I guess. Maybe I was just sad at the time...or something. Maybe my intuition isn't that strong.

Anyway. So I'm happy. Except my arm hurts from a stupid tetanus shot plus a meningicoccal(sp?) vaccine. It wouldn't bother me, except I sleep on my side...

Funny Story! So the other day, one of my friends and I went to a consignment shop. Well, there was a wedding dress in there, and we decided I should try it on. And I did. It was a gorgeous dress. Though it was a little heavy, and it wouldn't zip up all the way because I have breasts, but it was still fun to try on. My friend took a picture, maybe I'll post it later. Anyway, we also decided that we were going to go to a bridal shop, and tell them I'm getting married just so I can try on dresses. I thought that would be amazing. That dress made me want to get married, LOL.

Today seems a lot brighter to me....

Finally! A happy post! ^_^

あたしはとても嬉しいです！
I'm so happy!

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美知子です（I'm using a different character for "mi" now)

I really like comments...

If anyone happens to be reading this, could you please leave me a comment?
I like them, they make me feel loved. And right now I need them, because I don't feel loved at all.
So, yeah. Not feeling very chipper right now, so I may just leave it at that. Maybe tomorrow, I'll have something happier.
Should I go to Virginia to visit my mom...? Duh, the answer is yes.
Should I go at the end of July or the middle of August...? I have no clue. Middle of August might be better...maybe...
I don't know, but I'll have to reach a decision soon.
Why the hell am I talking about this?
Anyway. I'll post tomorrow, when (hopefully) I'll be happier...
またね
見知子です