So much for updates. Jeez...

So I'm back at school. It's October. I haven't posted since June. But I'm back now, and ready for some action! ... or I just really need to get my thoughts out of my head so I can sleep better at night.

First thing: Joe. He just dropped off the face of the earth. I don't know why, he didn't tell me. He just hasn't contacted me in about 2 weeks. I'm worried about him. I mean, if he doesn't wanna talk to me that's cool, but still. I'm worried.

Also, school. I'm taking 8 classes. I'm trying really hard to try and get all of my work done, but it's very stressful. Ethics of Eating pisses me off. I eat meat, but the whole curriculum seems to be saying not to because animals suffer. I'm not cool with the suffering, but I can't afford to eat only organic farm-bred meat. The rest of my classes are pretty okay, I just need to study more.

My social life. I'm trying to balance this out with my schoolwork. It's become less of a priority to hang out with the people I live with, and more to hang out with the people who actually talked to me over the summer. It's not like I care any less about the people I live with, but Erin, Eliza, and Tingo are much more easy to get along with.

My spirituality. I know that in the past I've hated on Christians a whole lot because I thought that their way wasn't right. I was wrong. They WERE right. Somehow, I got pulled into this way of thinking. I'm pretty sure I'm a Christian now. Isn't it weird? And... I don't think this is something that I'm just going to try out for a while. I feel like I'm going to get a better lifestyle and a better attitude, and more love all around. I want a relationship with God, and I want to accept Jesus as my Savior. I'm going to work hard to do both of these things. I think I'm going to be much happier and a much better person.

Me. I need to make myself better. I'm stressing out all the time, and I know I've done pretty terrible things in the past. But I don't want to anymore and I know that God is going to help me become better. I'm going to make myself healthier as a whole. My worries will eventually be resolved, and I'll stop doing the things that I'm ashamed of doing. My sins will be forgiven and I'm going to become a good person.

These are the main things... everything else will spill out eventually...