Spirituality

Alrighty then.
So my boyfriend mentioned that he might try paganism or Wicca out. When he said this, I was reminded that, once upon a time, I practiced Wicca. I really enjoyed it. However, based on my spiritual preferences now, I'm not sure if I could practice it or not...
I don't particularly like the idea of a higher power that rules over us. It doesn't seem realistic to me. That nature is alive and that humans are just a small part of it, THAT I can believe. I kinda borrow aspects from many different religions, but there isn't just one that works out for me. I always have a qualm or two. So basically my beliefs are: That humans can establish their own set of moral laws and acceptable behaviors. They don't need a book to tell them the difference between right and wrong. That focus on energy within oneself is good for us. We should meditate and channel this energy. It is also possible to channel energy from nature to oneself. Humans have a distinct connection with nature but have lost it over time. We can compromise though, between our synthetic world and nature, because all things begin organically. Nothing we produce comes from a void. Everything we make comes from the Earth and we use these things, so we are still connected to the Earth. However, we are destroying it, and should make an effort to respect the place that sustains us. Focus on oneself benefits all. If we all can know ourselves, we can better understand the rest of our world. I emphasize meditation. This allows us to think or not think, however you look at it. Most people nowadays just don't have time to stop and focus. We don't use our senses. My religious perspective is one in which humans should coexist with the world they live in.
I just babbled on there for a long time and have come to the conclusion that Wicca still works for me, now that I think about it. Still... eventually I'll probably have something to gripe about. I'll do some more research I suppose

Upset much?

Hmm... It's been a while hasn't it.
I guess not much has been going on. I feel really upset tonight. There's just a bunch of things that are bothering me I guess. Right this second... it's all the drunk people being loud outside my window... that's annoying.
So anyway. Lots of upsetting stuff going on right now. Not that there isn't good stuff going on. There is. But bad stuff usually outweighs the good. I just need things to get better. I hate when I don't have an answer to stuff. It kinda sucks. I just want to resolve my problems and I don't know how to. It usually comes down to everyone wanting me to cater to them, and me not wanting to but giving in anyway just to make them happy. I really don't think I should do that, though. And even if it makes them hate me... maybe I should just do things my way anyway.
I'll think on it a little more.
Goodnight.